Tuesday, June 30, 2009

Unfinished Hymn

I hold You in my heart
Your Hands around my Soul
I see Your face, my breathing starts
Your Smile and I am whole

No one else can capture me
Or hold me like You do
When You are near You're all I see
And all my thoughts are You

You write a Story in the Sky
Your Presence fills the Air
You say You love me through all Time
You promise to be there

The Waves they sign Your melody
The Winds dance to Your tune
Your heartbeat beats inside of me
Your Face glows in the Moon



The walls
around me

me from

I am afraid
of you

I am not used
to being

I thought
trusted you

Perhaps I did

Perhaps not

I'm thinking

never is

And as
I close
my petals
around myself

(They are steel,
you'll never break

You laugh

Shake your head

And say

"Those are
sour grapes anyway"

So you are
to condescend

And I am
in a trap
of my own

But safe

Not hurt

Not again

still then
does your
look pierce?

The marrow
in my bones

My soul liquifies

Is it
or bad

I cannot tell.

I just

for one moment

My steel petals

and you see

You Know.

And I...

Catching up...

SO I have pretty much discovered I am as horrible at keeping up with blogging as with everything else on a computer... why can't you all just see what I write down on paper??? Anyway I'm gonna go through some of what I'm thinking.

First U have a fun little prosey piece I wrote during church one night when contemplating magnification:

" A telescope takes a planet that looks far away and uninvolved and shows us how it actually affects our daily lives. Without that planet where it is the entire solar system would spin out of whack and we would die. So it is with God. May we be the devices that show and amaze people with the closeness, hugeness, and involvement of our God. much more than a mere planet, He orchestrates our every breath and chooses to let us survive to attempt with our feeble human efforts to praise and describe a God our tiny minds, that cannot even encompass our solar system, will never be able to comprehend."

More thoughts... less glorious:

I have been presented with a very practical solution to life. It's easy... like a math equation. It makes logistical sense and has quite a but going for it. But also like that math equation it is impossible to see how far reaching the affects will be. i have been desiring within myself a seemingly very impractical life, I want to go places and do things and such with no clear path on how I would get there. I have been highly confused (add some lovely emotion... oh what fun it is to be a woman =P) and i have been praying for God to show me which path He wants me on. (As of this moment the practical solution wells up the desire for me to run screaming... not a good sign.) If you read this and want to pray for me... that would be greatly helpful!